The Soft Power Journal

Category: Spirituality

  • Surrendering the Plan: Learning to Trust God in Real Time

    Surrendering the Plan: Learning to Trust God in Real Time

    Let me be honest—

    I love a good plan. A five-step strategy. A mapped-out vision with bullet points and backup routes.

    I love knowing what’s coming.

    It makes me feel safe.

    But lately?

    God hasn’t been giving me a plan.

    He’s been giving me moments.

    Moments that stretch me, quiet me, reroute me, and ask me to trust without clarity.

    And trusting God in real time?

    It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to learn.

    Real-time trust doesn’t come with a roadmap.

    It comes with a whisper: “Are you willing to move before it all makes sense?”

    It comes with blank pages, canceled plans, and doors you thought were yours slamming shut.

    It comes with you looking around, asking:

    “God, I thought I was ready. Why does this feel like falling apart instead of falling into place?”

    But what I’m learning is this:

    Trust isn’t built when everything is going right. It’s built in the silence between what you prayed for and what hasn’t shown up yet.

    I had to learn that surrender doesn’t mean giving up—it means letting go of my way.

    Letting go of the fantasy timeline.

    Letting go of the need to control the outcome.

    Letting go of my obsession with being “prepared enough.”

    Because sometimes, God doesn’t want your preparation—He wants your presence.

    He wants your obedience in the uncertainty.

    He wants your yes even when you’re trembling.

    Here’s what learning to trust God in real time has looked like for me:

    Saying yes to opportunities I didn’t feel fully ready for

    Leaving spaces I prayed to enter, because I no longer belonged there

    Pausing projects that used to bring me life, because they were now draining me

    Listening more, striving less

    Being okay with not being “on fire” but still being faithful

    I’ve had to stop asking for a five-year vision and start asking for today’s instructions.

    If you’re in this space—where nothing looks clear but you know you’re being called to trust—try this:

    1. Start your day with surrender.

    Before the to-do list. Before the scroll.

    Say: “God, interrupt my plan if You need to. I trust You more than I trust my own control.”

    2. Accept that clarity often comes in hindsight.

    Don’t wait for the whole staircase—just take the next step you do see.

    3. Stop needing to “feel ready.”

    Obedience won’t always feel comfortable.

    Move anyway. Speak anyway. Begin anyway.

    4. Pay attention to peace.

    God’s plan often sounds like stillness, not pressure.

    If the plan is stressing your soul, it might be time to let it go.

    You don’t need to figure everything out. You just need to stay open.

    Let this be your reminder:

    You’re not falling behind when the plan shifts—you’re being aligned in real time.

    What feels like delay might actually be divine protection.

    What feels like loss might actually be redirection.

    And what looks like confusion might actually be the start of your clearest season yet.

    If you’re learning to walk with God moment by moment,

    If you’re trying to surrender the plan without collapsing in fear,

    If you’re trusting without the full picture—

    You’re doing sacred work.

    You’re walking by faith.

    And that… is more than enough.

  • The Sacred Work of Resting Without Guilt, Surrendering the Plan, and Learning to Trust God in Real Time

    The Sacred Work of Resting Without Guilt, Surrendering the Plan, and Learning to Trust God in Real Time

    There was a moment—recently, actually—when I sat in my room surrounded by half-finished ideas, unopened emails, and a heart that felt too tired to keep performing.

    I looked around and realized…

    I had no plan. No next step. No fire left to fake it.

    And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t want to push through it.

    I just wanted to rest.

    But that scared me.

    Because rest, for women like us—women who have survived off strength—can feel like failure.

    Like letting the world move without you.

    Like being lazy. Or falling behind.

    But what if I told you that rest isn’t weakness?

    That surrender doesn’t mean defeat—

    It means devotion.

    It means trust.

    Nobody teaches you how to trust God in real time.

    Not when everything’s going right.

    I mean when the plan falls apart.

    When the vision board starts to feel like a lie.

    When you’re in the hallway between what you prayed for and what hasn’t shown up yet.

    It’s one thing to trust God with hindsight.

    But to trust Him right here—in the pause, in the unraveling, in the silence?

    That’s sacred work.

    Resting without guilt requires reparenting yourself.

    I had to sit with the part of me that only felt valuable when I was producing something.

    The part that confused hustle for healing.

    The part that believed if I wasn’t pushing, striving, creating—I wasn’t enough.

    That voice? It wasn’t mine.

    It was inherited.

    It was survival.

    It was my old blueprint.

    But I’m building a new one now.

    One where rest is not earned—it’s honored.

    One where I don’t need a reason to pause.

    One where I can lay my plans down without thinking I’m letting God down too.

    This season has taught me something I’ll never forget:

    When you stop trying to control every outcome,

    When you stop begging for clarity before you take a step,

    When you stop asking “God, just give me the full picture” before you move…

    You finally start to live from trust instead of fear.

    Not because you know what’s coming.

    But because you know Who is with you in the unknown.

    Here’s how I’m learning to rest, surrender, and trust right now:

    1. I no longer ask for signs. I ask for stillness.

    Because sometimes the sign is in the pause.

    Sometimes God is saying, “You don’t need confirmation. You just need to breathe.”

    2. I give myself permission to not be “on.”

    Not every season is meant for output.

    Some seasons are meant to restore what burnout tried to steal.

    3. I lay the plan down every morning.

    Literally. I write my to-do list and then I whisper:

    “But God, if You need to interrupt this—I trust You.”

    That’s not easy. But it’s freedom.

    4. I remember that provision is not limited by my performance.

    Even when I rest, He works.

    Even when I pause, I’m still held.

    Even when I don’t feel productive, I am still protected.

    So if you’re tired—really tired—this post is your permission slip.

    To stop forcing.

    To stop pretending.

    To stop proving.

    Lay it all down.

    The timeline.

    The expectation.

    The weight.

    And pick up something lighter:

    Peace.

    Presence.

    God’s promise.

    You don’t need to have it all figured out.

    You just need to trust that you’re not being forgotten in the stillness.

    This is sacred.

    This is holy.

    This… is real-time trust.

    And if all you can do today is breathe, whisper a prayer, and believe that rest is also part of the work—

    then baby, you are right on time.

  • This Isn’t Stuck, This is Preparation

    This Isn’t Stuck, This is Preparation

    There’s a moment when the noise dies down.

    The texts slow.

    The plans don’t go through.

    The vision board starts to blur.

    And even though you’re still showing up, still breathing, still doing what you can… it feels like nothing is moving.

    You start wondering if you’re missing something.

    If you lost your touch.

    If God stopped listening.

    But what if… you’re not stuck?

    What if this is holy ground, and you’re standing at the edge of a becoming too sacred to rush?

    Because here’s what nobody tells you:

    Preparation feels like stillness.

    It feels like quiet days, unseen work, plans that don’t stick, and prayers that echo back with silence.

    It feels like pulling weeds with no sign of blooms.

    And it will feel like stuck—until you realize you’re actually being softened for what’s next.

    I know that space.

    I’ve cried in it. Fought it. Tried to outwork it.

    I’ve sat in rooms where I once felt powerful and wondered why I suddenly felt invisible.

    I’ve looked at other people’s progress and questioned if I took too many detours.

    But eventually I realized:

    Every delay was disguised direction. Every pause was a prayer being answered quietly.

    Because real power?

    It doesn’t always enter loud.

    Sometimes it tiptoes in while you’re wiping your eyes and learning how to be gentle with yourself again.

    Let’s talk about what preparation really looks like:

    It’s the days when nothing makes sense but your intuition won’t let you quit.

    It’s the version of you that doesn’t feel “on,” but somehow still chooses to show up.

    It’s the space between who you’ve been and who you’re becoming—and the ache of no longer fitting into either.

    You’re not being punished.

    You’re being positioned.

    But you’ve gotta stop calling it stuck.

    Because stuck implies lifelessness.

    And sis, you are anything but lifeless.

    You are actively being re-rooted.

    Refined.

    Redirected.

    Even if it doesn’t look like movement, you are becoming.

    Here’s how to hold yourself when it feels like nothing’s happening:

    1. Stop measuring your momentum by what’s visible.

    Growth doesn’t always leave proof. Sometimes the roots are strengthening before the bloom.

    2. Ask: “What is this preparing me for?” instead of “Why is this happening?”

    Shift the narrative. You’re not being blocked, you’re being built.

    3. Create a “preparation altar.”

    Write down what you’re calling in. Add something symbolic—an old photo, a letter, a verse.

    Place it somewhere you’ll see every day. Let it remind you that the pause is sacred.

    4. Breathe. Really breathe.

    When you start to spiral, come back to your body.

    Place your hand on your heart and say: I trust this pause is protecting and preparing me.

    5. Let this version of you be enough.

    Not the “glowed up” one. Not the “ready” one.

    The one that’s in-between. The one learning how to hold faith without a finish line.

    If this season is quiet… you’re not broken. You’re being spoken to differently.

    So maybe it’s not time to force a breakthrough.

    Maybe it’s time to receive what only silence can offer.

    You don’t need to have all the answers.

    You don’t need to be on fire to be walking in purpose.

    And you don’t need to rush something that’s already yours.

    This isn’t stuck.

    This is where your wings are being stretched.

    This is where your prayers are gaining roots.

    This is where power is being woven into your stillness.

    This… is preparation.

  • Unleashing the Creative Goddess Within: How to Awaken Your Inner Artist

    Unleashing the Creative Goddess Within: How to Awaken Your Inner Artist

    Hey everyone, I hope your Valentine’s Day and weekend were filled with love, joy, and meaningful moments! Whether you celebrated with someone special or took time to honor yourself, I hope it was everything you needed. Now, as we dive into this week’s post, let’s talk about something that’s truly close to my heart: embracing your inner artist and awakening the creative goddess within.

    What is Creativity?

    Creativity is often boxed into terms like “art” or “talent,” but the truth is that creativity is a sacred, inherent part of who we are. It’s not confined to one medium or type of expression—it’s a deep force that runs through all of us. At times, many of us feel disconnected from this creative side, convinced it’s something for others, not us. However, the truth is that everyone has the ability to be creative. Whether it’s through writing, art, or even the way we approach life itself, creativity is always present.

    The Power of Creative Expression:

    Creativity is more than just making something beautiful—it’s a powerful way to express our emotions, our deepest thoughts, and our innermost desires. When we express ourselves creatively—whether through painting, writing, or even dancing—we allow our hearts to speak. Creativity helps us heal, grow, and explore parts of ourselves we might otherwise ignore.

    How Creativity and Our Inner Energy Flow Together:

    Creativity isn’t just a product of talent—it’s connected to our energy. When we allow ourselves to feel joy and freedom in our creative expression, we unlock a deeper flow of energy. This isn’t just about creating something physical, but about reconnecting with our true selves.

    Let’s talk briefly about energy. The sacral chakra, or Svadhisthana, governs creativity, emotions, and sensuality. It resides just below the belly button and plays a huge role in unlocking creative flow. When it’s balanced, we feel open to expressing ourselves, freely creating, and embracing our desires. But when it’s blocked, we can feel stuck, disconnected, or hesitant to explore our creativity. In the next few sections, I’ll share ways you can tap into this flow and get in touch with your inner artist.

    How to Reconnect with Your Inner Artist and Balance Your Sacral Chakra:

    1. Start Small, But Start:

    If you’re feeling disconnected from your creativity, the first step is to simply begin. Whether it’s painting, writing, or dancing, allow yourself to express whatever comes naturally. Start small—perhaps with a few minutes of free journaling or sketching. As you allow your creative energy to flow, you’ll start to feel the sacral chakra’s energy awakening within you.

    2. Create Without Judgement:

    The sacral energy thrives when we let go of perfection. Let go of the need for perfection, and simply create. Let go of self-doubt and the fear of being judged. Creativity is not about impressing anyone. It’s about allowing your soul to express itself freely and authentically.

    3. Make Time for Joy and Pleasure:

    Creativity is closely tied to joy, pleasure, and play. Take time to enjoy the things that make you happy, and don’t rush the process. Whether it’s dancing in your living room, cooking a meal, or singing along to your favorite song, engage in activities that nourish your soul and remind you of the beauty of being alive.

    4. Incorporate Creativity into Everyday Life:

    Creativity isn’t just about making art. It’s in everything we do. From how we dress to how we arrange our homes, creativity is woven into every aspect of life. Try changing up your routine or adding a creative touch to your environment. How can you express creativity through your daily actions?

    How to Balance Your Sacral Chakra to Unlock Creativity:

    1. Gentle Movement:

    Try doing some gentle, hip-opening yoga or dance to get your body moving. These movements help release any stagnant energy in the sacral chakra and allow creativity to flow freely.

    2. Self-Expression Through Art:

    Experiment with different forms of creative expression. Start a journal, paint, write poetry, or simply doodle. The act of expressing yourself creatively will activate the energy of the sacral chakra and help unblock any barriers to creativity.

    3. Embrace Sensuality:

    Creativity isn’t just intellectual—it’s also sensual. Spend time engaging with your senses: savor a delicious meal, take a warm bath, enjoy the beauty of nature. Nourishing your senses connects you with your creativity in a profound way.

    My Journey with Creative Blocks: A Story of Vulnerability

    For so long, I struggled with creative blocks, constantly battling feelings of fear, shame, and guilt. Every time I tried something new, whether it was writing, painting, or even dancing, I feared rejection. What if people didn’t like it? What if I wasn’t good enough? These feelings were overwhelming, and they held me back for years.

    But here’s what I’ve learned: being vulnerable with your creativity is one of the most powerful things you can do. The fear of rejection is natural, but it doesn’t define our worth. Creativity is not about perfection—it’s about self-expression and embracing the joy of creating for yourself first, not for anyone else’s approval.

    I had to remind myself that failure isn’t the opposite of success—it’s part of the process. I had to let go of the need for everything to be perfect and simply allow myself to create, no matter how messy or unrefined the process seemed. Over time, I realized that my worth wasn’t tied to the judgment of others—it was tied to my willingness to be unapologetically myself.

    Releasing those blocks has been a huge part of my growth. Today, when I create, I no longer let fear dictate my actions. I create from a place of love, not expectation. And I hope you can do the same.

    Engage and Explore Your Creativity: An Invitation to Action

    Now that we’ve explored how to embrace creativity and balance our sacral chakra, let’s take it a step further. Here are a few activities to awaken your creative energy and embrace the beauty of self-expression:

    1. The Creative Journaling Challenge:

    Grab a journal and write without judgment. Start with a simple prompt:

    • “When was the last time I felt truly creative?”

    • “How can I express myself more freely?”

    Write for at least 10 minutes, allowing your thoughts to flow onto the page. Don’t censor yourself—just let it out.

    2. Create a Vision Board for Your Creative Self:

    Create a vision board that represents your creative aspirations. Use images, words, and colors that inspire you, and place them on your board. This is a visual reminder of your creative potential.

    3. Dance and Move Your Body:

    Put on your favorite music and let your body move freely. Don’t worry about how you look—just feel the music and express yourself. This will help release any creative blocks and encourage your sacral chakra to open.

    4. Try Something New:

    Take a step outside your comfort zone and try a new creative activity. Whether it’s painting, photography, or even taking a dance class, allow yourself to explore. Creativity thrives when you embrace new experiences.

    5. The Color Challenge:

    Wear or surround yourself with orange—the color associated with the sacral chakra. Whether it’s in your clothes, your home décor, or through your art, let this color inspire creativity and joy.

    Final Thoughts:

    The sacral chakra is a powerful force that governs our creativity, emotions, and ability to experience pleasure. By reconnecting with this energy, we can unlock new levels of creativity, self-expression, and personal growth.

    Remember: Creativity isn’t about perfection. It’s about expressing yourself authentically and allowing your soul to shine. Embrace your creativity, honor your inner artist, and let the sacral chakra guide you toward infinite possibilities.