There was a moment—recently, actually—when I sat in my room surrounded by half-finished ideas, unopened emails, and a heart that felt too tired to keep performing.
I looked around and realized…
I had no plan. No next step. No fire left to fake it.
And for the first time in a long time, I didn’t want to push through it.
I just wanted to rest.
But that scared me.
Because rest, for women like us—women who have survived off strength—can feel like failure.
Like letting the world move without you.
Like being lazy. Or falling behind.
But what if I told you that rest isn’t weakness?
That surrender doesn’t mean defeat—
It means devotion.
It means trust.
Nobody teaches you how to trust God in real time.
Not when everything’s going right.
I mean when the plan falls apart.
When the vision board starts to feel like a lie.
When you’re in the hallway between what you prayed for and what hasn’t shown up yet.
It’s one thing to trust God with hindsight.
But to trust Him right here—in the pause, in the unraveling, in the silence?
That’s sacred work.
Resting without guilt requires reparenting yourself.
I had to sit with the part of me that only felt valuable when I was producing something.
The part that confused hustle for healing.
The part that believed if I wasn’t pushing, striving, creating—I wasn’t enough.
That voice? It wasn’t mine.
It was inherited.
It was survival.
It was my old blueprint.
But I’m building a new one now.
One where rest is not earned—it’s honored.
One where I don’t need a reason to pause.
One where I can lay my plans down without thinking I’m letting God down too.
This season has taught me something I’ll never forget:
When you stop trying to control every outcome,
When you stop begging for clarity before you take a step,
When you stop asking “God, just give me the full picture” before you move…
You finally start to live from trust instead of fear.
Not because you know what’s coming.
But because you know Who is with you in the unknown.
Here’s how I’m learning to rest, surrender, and trust right now:
1. I no longer ask for signs. I ask for stillness.
Because sometimes the sign is in the pause.
Sometimes God is saying, “You don’t need confirmation. You just need to breathe.”
2. I give myself permission to not be “on.”
Not every season is meant for output.
Some seasons are meant to restore what burnout tried to steal.
3. I lay the plan down every morning.
Literally. I write my to-do list and then I whisper:
“But God, if You need to interrupt this—I trust You.”
That’s not easy. But it’s freedom.
4. I remember that provision is not limited by my performance.
Even when I rest, He works.
Even when I pause, I’m still held.
Even when I don’t feel productive, I am still protected.
So if you’re tired—really tired—this post is your permission slip.
To stop forcing.
To stop pretending.
To stop proving.
Lay it all down.
The timeline.
The expectation.
The weight.
And pick up something lighter:
Peace.
Presence.
God’s promise.
You don’t need to have it all figured out.
You just need to trust that you’re not being forgotten in the stillness.
This is sacred.
This is holy.
This… is real-time trust.
And if all you can do today is breathe, whisper a prayer, and believe that rest is also part of the work—
then baby, you are right on time.
The Soft Power Journal 